hope4recovery

stop i wanna get off

hope | December 17, 2007 13:35

i try and look back and remember when i was happy within myself, i know that there has been times. recently i just seem to be going round in circles and i so desperately want it to stop. its seems like i have a good few days and before i know it im back in that madness of purging and using laxatives and the fear of putting on weight and feeling out of control is with me again. christmas is near the time of getting together with family and sitting back and eating lots, how i dread that!!! i have faith that one day i will have some peace within myself, im trying to challenge that guilt that kicks in and tells me ive eaten to much and im disgusting, somedays are easier that others.

wish you all a happy christmas and may 2008 bring plenty of happiness and joy to us all.